Happiness

Through out my life, I have struggled to come to terms with what happiness is. I thought that happiness meant not having any worries. I realised that, that is not what happiness is about.

Happiness is the fact that even though I do not have a mother to run to when I am hurt and a father I know, I have two amazing cousins. We may argue but they never make me feel stupid. They do not tell me they love, they show me and it took me a while to realise that.

I have an amazing grandmother who is there for me because my mother can not be here. Recently she said

"It hurts me that my daughter can not see you when you are all grown up. You are so smart." She said this because I remembered where the drop off zone was.

In those moments when they speak about her, I feel like shouting "Stop talking about her!" but when I look back, I love the fact that my mother would be proud of me. I love the fact that my mother loved shopping but I love the fact that even though she is gone I still have an amazing family that I can always count on.

You see happiness is not about what you want, it is about appreciating what you have.